Subby Token

Today I had fun and made my submissive token.

Standing at Attention

How proud are you when you stand to attention and stand proud by my Master so Standing at Attention is a great way to show respect.

Submission

lol okay I was asked can i submit with out a dominant....?

i was like WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT...........UM.....................NO

to me this would never be possible...

Not possible .... No lol

I have a bossy moody streak, hey i doubt i would listen to myself, magin souting at myself when im in a mood... Eeek lol.

Command Knee crawl

The command knee crawl.

When Master says knee crawl, I must stop what I am doing and crawl on my hands and knees.

Crawling on the knees is used for very specific reasons. It is a simple knee crawl that will briefly reminded me of my submission to my Dominant.

Learn to kneel

Because I am a submissive BUT will be Masters full time slave I kneel a lot so I don't need to learn how to kneel as i do kneel by masters side by my bed before my Master, there is a lot of kneeling that I do for him, its already in me and it gets done the correct way daily in more than one position.

As a submissive/slave girl kneels before her Master daily with pride and full respect toward Him.

Weekly task

Weekly task:

[Monday Task]

So every Monday I am to write Master a letter in my journal about the previous week and it can be about anything.

Rule 2.

Rule 2.

Training Collar Rule.

Before leaving your home every day, you must be wearing your training collar that reminds you constantly of your Master.

The item must be worn in plain sight on your arm and in public for others to see, it must never be hidden.

If you need to remove your collar for any Good/Valid reason you will first ask your Dominant for permission.

First White Button

Today I received my first White button

31st March 2015

Lables

I label my submission as

Master/slave

You might find this strange as I'm a submissive but Master and I know whats what ... i am going to be moving forward into becoming Masters fully owned slave and i cant wait..

So what is a slave

As a slave control is given up completely. The power balance is completely tipped in the Dominants direction. However keep in mind this is a choice the slave makes not something she was made to do. Slaves usually are slaves 24/7.
They may work but when they get home there is no distinction from normal day to a BDSM day, that person is always a slave from the day they ask for that. As a slave sex is still very real and alive however not always the goal and not needed for the Dominant and slave to be in that persona. As a slave the lifestyle is usually more intense in pain, humiliation and just pure pleasure. Even when it does not involve any sexual act pleasure to serve and pleasure to control is there.

Something to remember however is that as a slave this does not mean if the Dominant asks you to break the law or hurt yourself that you should obey on a whim. If a Dominant is asking you to do things that are against the law or against your moral values than he or she is not a true dominant.

slave is a term often used in BDSM to connote a specific form of submissive.

It should be noted that the Owner/slave relationship is entered into on a strictly consensual basis, without the legal force of historical or modern non-consensual slavery. It is also worth mentioning that the laws of all countries strictly forbid the practice of slavery.

Slaves speak in third person speech. Therefore you shouldn't use the words “I,” “me,” or “mine.” Instead, say “this one,” “this slave,” or “this girl.” The exception is in speaking of a girl’s particular Owner.

My Mantra

Today Master gave me some sonnets to choose from and make a mantra for myself and my submission i chose

I crave you, please give me more , because I want more dominance and control in my life.

I also chose

I kneel by the clock and await you, because sometimes there are things that cause me to wait.

Communication

COMMUNICATE - GET ON THE SAME PAGE

Today I am learning about Communication in BDSM. I also got my first rule today rule 1 is a communication rule, everyday I will communicate with my Master by sending a good morning e mail no later than 10am and a good night e mail no later than 10pm.

Communication is a key foundation block not only in any lifestyle based relationship, but in all relationships we experience throughout our lives. Communication is one of those topics in the lifestyle that can never be discussed enough or the importance stressed enough.

Communication is vital to this lifestyle, and you cannot effectively communicate if everybody isn't using the same language.

BDSM has a huge variety of lifestyles, fetishes, activities and also kinks. Think of a huge menu that includes every possible sexual expression you can think of and many you never dreamed existed and it is part of this buffet we call BDSM. Each individual picks and chooses as many of these activities as appeal to them. Yes, there are some exotic-sounding dishes on this buffet, but not everybody tastes every dish, let alone makes it a part of their regular diet.

That is why tolerance and acceptance should be the cornerstone of our community.

In any and all of these activities, trust and communication is the most important component. If you don't trust your partner, and cannot honestly communicate with him or her, you have no business messing around with BDSM. It is a very powerful magic.

I promise to always communicate as best as I can to my Master.

Training Collar

Training collar.

Today I got my training collar this will be worn permanently by me whilst doing the training course with my Master.

As respect to your Dominant you also don't take off or remove the collar and let someone else handle it.
No matter which collar you wear, remember what it represents and treat it with respect. Never neglect or dismiss your collar!

Respect

Day 6

Respect:

A Word About Respect:
With a modest and unassuming attitude, offer respect where it is due.

My Dominant always respects me as His submissive and as a human being, in the same unique way I show that respect to my Master.

I as a submissive promise to always be respectful toward my Dominant.

Trust

Day 5

Trust.................I as the submissive promise to always be trustworthy toward my Dominant...

And

Trust that I get the same in return.

Honesty

Day 4

Honesty

I promise to always be honest with me Dominant.

Honesty should be everything, I mean without it there is NOTHING.

Honesty is the ability to speak up, be open and truthful.

Don't hide your emotions, fears, limits, fantasies, ideas and thoughts.

Don't tell your Dominant what you think He wants to hear.

A successful submissive is an honest person, one who does not lie, deceive, or intentionally manipulate.

Honesty builds trust. Trust is the basis of a relationship.

To lie, breaks down the trust and therefore the relationship by removing it's very foundation.

And just like a submissive needs to be all the above, so does the Dominant.

BE HONEST ALWAYS!!

Submissive Journal

Day 3

My Submissive Journal

A very common first request of a Dominant, either online or offline is to have you start a submissive journal. If you've never kept a diary then this can be a daunting task. And if you have then it's not to bad I have had a few Diaries.

Having to write openly and honestly about your feelings and experiences can have a huge impact on your submission and personal development. A submissive journal is all about you. Even if the journal is by your choice, or you are not currently in a relationship, a submissive journal has it’s place.

So Master J and I have decided on doing this blog online. And I hope it gets read and appreciated, as I document my days and some thoughts as I go along.

Negotiation

Day 2

Negotiations with Master J

So negotiations should cover the people involved, who they are, how many what the roles of each person will be were and at what time will it be 24/7 or just certain times what are each persons limits hard and soft. all sexual activities must be negotiated what types of bondage and how much pain, does the other person want marks, and where can they be visible.  Will there be any humiliation and if yes what types and where.

Safe-words are a must there has to be safe-words from each person and the others are to remember the safe-words.

Who will be dominant? and Who will be submissive? Types master/slave mistress/slave captive servant/butler/Etc cross-dressing/gender play age play animal play, does anyone want to switch roles. There is SO much to negotiate but with the correct negotiation forms that we used it was really very easy.

Interview

Day 1

Interview

Having an Interview with a potential Dominant can be scary and daunting for anyone even me, I have been on a roller coaster ride since I started on my journey to become a submissive I feel like I have been running around like a headless chicken, and it's no fun I want to be a 24/7 submissive and I want to do it correctly so today is my interview with Master J.

It's good to ask a lot of questions and I think the more you ask the better it will be, some of the questions He asked were things like what was my favorite food when I was a child? My answer is Mc Donald's and well it still is, I know very unhealthy. We asked one another about favorite music, quotes, activities, what we love doing and what we hate doing, do we enjoy eating out or staying at home.

He asked about my feelings, what I want out of this, and how do I want to feel, we discussed safety and precautions.

I'm kind of a loner, I don't have a lot of friends and I don't really like to be around a lot of people at one time, this is mainly because I am a very shy person and I don't handle myself well around strangers, it takes me a long time to get used to someone including a potential Dominant.

Thank you for making the Interview go well and for making me feel relaxed with you Master J.